What does "show the fuck up" really mean anyway - and why does it matter?

I had "Show the fuck up" as my screen saver for a couple of days - probably not my smartest move.........I have an 8year old, she picked up my phone.....aggggh I had to grab it out of her hand faster than a fast thing - but of course she was still giggling and looking at me with wide eyes for a while thinking goodness knows what.  Oops

I had it there as a reminder for me - not meant for younger viewers!  (I forgot I have little readers - who, incidentally,  aren't encouraged to use "the F-word"!)

So why did I think it was important enough to use as a screen saver?

Well,  if I'm not conscious about the way I live, I have a tendency to fall into the gaps.  I can find myself spending hours on end, on facebook searching for god-knows-what, cleaning the house, running errands, having coffee and talking about the weather, spending 20minutes trying to find the perfect thing to say on my instagram post, or watching hours of Suits or Greys Anatomy............and ME, the real ME, never shows up.

And that's a problem - because not showing up means, I don't get to live the kind of life I want to live.
It means I lose confidence.
It means I'm not sure about myself
It means the dreams I have - don't get lived, the goals I wrote down - don't happen.
It means I don't really know who I am - I just kind of go with the crowd.

Not showing up means, I just keep doing the things I've always done, and life just shuffles along.

Showing up is no longer an optional thing - it's a MUST.

Showing up, to me means something along the lines of - "If my life was my message - what would it be?" (NOT what would I want it to be - but what would it actually be - at this point in time?!)

Also - it means noticing when I'm saying something (or not saying something) to be polite, accepted, avoid conflict, or just blend in and be liked by the particular group I'm with that day. As someone who's spent a lot of time trying to please others and be liked by them - this is a constant work in progress.  I gotta watch myself.

So, I need to remind myself on the daily, to show the fuck up - because who I am, how I think and what I do matters.
Each decision I make, each moment I live - I'm creating myself and my life.  I get to choose, who I am, and what life feels and looks like. 

I don't need to remind my 8 year old - she's a natural. 

I'd love to hear - what do you do to show up?  If you were going to show up differently, as the woman of your dreams, who would you be?  If your life was your message - what would it be - and what would you want it to be?  What do you do to live on purpose?  How do you get where you want to go?  

Who you are, what you do, M A T T E R S.

Writing this post is how I show up today........what about you?

Love xx